I have had enough of self-denial

I am not the one on trial

Its society

I have had enough of this sobriety

I am going to break the chain

No need to explain

You have been applying the screw

And you always knew

That eventually I would crack

And start fighting back

I am starting a new page

The world is my stage

I am throwing away my black clothing

I no longer have a need for self-loathing

What did you expect?

I have regained my self-respect

Darkness approaches

Once more I turn to melancholy

Turning in on myself

A period of introspection

Full of doubts

How will I find the light to guide me?

So long in the darkness

Isolated and alone

Time passes by

One empty day after another

Should I end it all?

Is that the only answer?

What happens if I do nothing?

A slow decline

Into middle age and still further on

Into old age

Still nothing has been achieved

A few small successes along the way

But is that enough to save me?

Will God reject my soul as empty and shallow?

Will I be handed to the Devil to hang from the gallows?

After the flame died away,
Loneliness and darkness filled my soul
When I realized that life had no meaning to me,
And all I felt was the cold.
Understanding me was impossible
For all that I spoke and felt,
Was lost in the eternal blackness
And never to be seen again.
Something new has come into my life,
Taking the demons in my mind away.
I can now live without dread,
For the angel of my death has arrived.

I don't know why I feel

The way that I do now.
With an urge to kill,
A desire to thrill,
While my world crashes down.
Once upon a time,
I was angel with silver wings-
I broke my word,
I killed my dreams,
But nobody there forgave my sins.
So now I'm just this victim
Of preconception
And true damnation,
Wracked with splinters,
Reminding me of
My wicked immoralation.
I'm reaching out into a world
I can no longer see.
Twisting emotions,
Chaotic potions,
Of longing for the person
I used to know as me.

Death points to me
With a long, bony finger.
Encapsulates me in darkness,
Soothes my angry soul.
Tells me to be calm
And guides me through the tunnel.
I cannot see any light
Just never-ending blackness.
After an eternity
I arrive in Hell.
Perpetual drones,
Piercing screams.
Fires burning,
Scary dreams.
Death has taken me,
I am no longer existent
For I am his.

The freak stands all alone,
Staring silently through eyes of dark.
Evil piercing through her victims,
As they mock her.
A veil of shimmering black
Covers her sadness
Showing a mask that scares.
Gloom surrounds her
And she floats through the crowd
Of unidentified clones
To her palace of sin.
An eternity of coldness
Paves its way through her so-called life,
As she gazes upon the pale moon
Wondering what the point could be

In this paradox of life
I used to know so well,
The path of my existence
has turned into a hell.
I'm lost in my maze of mortality,
I'm drowning in blood soaked tears,
I'm falling from a starless sky
As an angel scarred with fears.
My cloud has no silver lining-
It rains too much to shine,
There's no light at the end of the tunnel-
For the tunnel is no longer mine.
The demon deep inside me,
Trapped me in this black hole,
I'm searching with closed eyes now,
For it tries to control my soul.
I wish the demon would leave my mind ,
For it's making me go insane.
But the only way to slay the demon,
Is to bring my life to an end.

I lived in darkness

Withdrawn from modern life

My mind was full of negativity

And my mood was depressed

I can relate to the melancholic poets

And the gothic literature of Edgar Allan Poe

These lost souls are misunderstood

This is not a quest for evil

But a search for positive energy

I will come out of this stronger

Wiser and more sympathetic

I felt so restrained by modernity

By the pressure to conform and look good

I took a razor and cut through the superficial layer

To get in touch with my soul

I had to risk losing my life

To realise how precious it is

Now I am fully restored

A cloak of darkness surrounds me

I see the world in crystal clear vision

Droplets of blood fall from my eyes

A memory of the sadness I endured

A bright new spirit guides me

But the darkness will always be there

                     To remind me how bright these days